Beyond a broken bridge..

I close my eyes and apologize for all the lies I told myself. I looked away from all the truth that laid awake beneath the broken bridge beyond the star glazed road. To my surprise in the nick of time I closed a broken door. Soon to wake before the quake of the wonders beyond rainbows. I know my truth and I know yours and you know what lies in reality. An escape beyond the clasps of humanity was what we stole and made ours. Tonight I see before my very eyes the truth that you are captive of. I apologize that I can't stand by and watch my shadows fight in the day time. I was captivated in your gaze and my hands lost in your grasp. I let my mind drift away and along with it I got lost in yours. In your head there was nothing but hope nothing but bright skies and yet nothing for love. Unprepared, undiscovered we're waiting in lost words. Worlds twirling in whirlwinds of rage and yet the seas are calm.. The ship is sailing beyond your bay and you've just watched it pass. You never stopped to lend a gaze and now the white sail is gone. Sweet sorrows will blow away and soon the wounds will be healed but look your way and know that I say my love was true. Say goodbye and say goodnight for tommorows will last all night through..

Done!

Stolen little nibbles of a bite too big. All down the gutter of things that just weren't meant to be. End it now when nothing more is lost. Leave now broken before the little pieces are gone. Never again to lose myself to dwell in a realm of darkness beyond all else. I must pick up these sweet nothings and make it wonderful everythings that just don't matter anymore. Define this moment as the hour calls for the bell to ring. Chime through this chapter and end it with infinity. All that is lost in ones lonesome kiss is all that remains in a lover's drift. Sonnets written of long awaited love is all crumbled and tossed away in the new man's world. Thoughts adrift and lies that lay swift. Tonights the night and tommorows no longer exist.. Bring me back to todays and what ifs.. Let me be lost in all my amazings within. Let the rainbow surpass the clouds in the sky and let me stop my dreams of stupid you and I's..

My moon is fading and the sunshine is no more. Twilights are over and now I must live on my own. Let go of the clouds in the skies for now they have all my stories laid to line. All my stolen daydreams and all my laughter filled nights. I miss you.. I miss you.. And I'll miss you tonight. I hate goodbyes and now I hate hellos. The tidings come to an end much like every other good show. I hate goodbyes and solemn vows. Secret lies that only I know. Everybody shares fate but one me shares faith in all the unkept promises in the forbidden gardens. Every star as my witness but noone to comfort. I am cold and scared. Lost in a distance. Nobody knows my name and only I know of this game. My heart stops beating and suddenly my eyes are glazed. Darkness shroud me and take away this pain. Restore my golden rays and let me be awakened once more. Let this be my saviour, my knight in shining armour. Let this tale end with a happy ending for I can't stand another broken piece in my little heart..

Goosebumps..

And this is just another bad dream,
Another mini episode to not dwell in.
Tommorow will wake me up in a new place,
and all these little nightmares will just fade away.

Another crack through my broken little smile,
One more blink in the lost twinkle in my eye.
Another turn back to all thats left behind,
Tonight I live and the lights light up my strides.

My own happy ending

Here I am.. This is where time breathes. Steal my breaths and squeeze my heart till it just won't beat. For a moment I am gone. The clicks of every clock start ticking and the gears in my head turn once more. All the thoughts are back to haunt me and I am lost from reality no more. Love not what once seemed real for destiny is no more the essence of day. Struck once is more than plenty for once is just all its going to take. Broken wings may mend and fly away but a broken spirit takes more than rest and bandages.. The cast was off too soon before its time, now the bones it worked so hard to hold together shatter just out of grasp. Bit by bit the pieces fall like rain drops in a field so cold. The pieces lie upon the ground like there is nowhere else for it to be. Its long expected home of old of familiar feelings that were all supposed to reach a happy ending built to last. I let down my hair no more and I climb my own stairwell. I slay my own dragons and I stand firm in what I must. My heart is mine and you will not conquer for my sleeve is torn and it will no longer bear the stains on my arm.

At the edge of anywhere today...

Can't fall back. Not into a past that only dreams can be a part of. I'm holding on at the end of this cliff and I'm not letting go. Not diving head first into a land where the fairy tales seem real when all around you shadows are spreading their arms. Finger tips dug deep into this rock, I'm screaming all my last breaths just to keep hanging on. As my tears slide down my cheeks, the world around me spins and I can't keep up. My body aches.. Every muscle, every nerve at its very end but nothing is beyond the pain of the little beats that throw me off course. Not remembering what anything feels like I wanna keep it this way. I don't wanna remember I don't wanna dream. I wanna be head first and all body in with my reality, all I can see and feel and have in my arms. This is what it is and somehow this isn't what its about. Rainbows end and this is my pot of gold. My rainbow is over and before me I see its shimmer. A little bit shattered and a little less reflective of the sunlight I once saw but there it is. Waiting for me.. Maybe my record is broken, all my stories are repeating unwillingly. Get me out of this loop. Take my hand and pull me out of this black hole. Bring me back my blue skies and let the warmth of the sun take me away...

Silent screams..

A vague message sent by a stranger. One that expects lines in between to be coated in magic fairy dust to make all things suddenly seem real. Fairies weren't made outside of the land of dreams and my fantasy ended when all reality came crashing in. Beyond that mountain I once called my own, I hide not away from my friend shadows. Claims of light beyond my reach, I feel my warmth glow from inside of me. I need not the light nor its fading rays. I search not in the dark for I have not forgotten my wings. I fly and soar and feel the wind beneath my wings. The air lifts me and now I know not of evil things. My past is over and my future renewed. All I look toward is now finally being consumed. Thoughts told to be of my own were deceitful images to be held. Ones looked upon only to be strengthened again. Maybe the podium built fits not both you and I but I need not a podium for I live in the sky. I am above all that live to ambush, taunt and scorn. I live beyond fires that look into your eyes and ceaselessly burn. Once you soared amongst the birds, and once you sat on great trees above. Now you stand within your own bitterness, lost in words that only you speak of. What is real and what is not anymore? I don't understand what your world survives on anymore. All that you held dear has been banished for an uncertain eternity and all that is left is the ashes you allow yourself to dwell within. The ashes are but that of a phoenix. They wait to rise in flames of beauty. If only you opened your eyes to see what lies before you, maybe someday you will see the clouds that crowd your mind from the truth of your judgement. All my dreams lost and poured into one, now all my dreams captured have come all at once. I tire not from breaking the ashes although I break free each time and each time the light shines a little less brighter. Angels fall and so do poets however angels find light while the poet hides in darkness. Choose now for all eternity depends on it. For the choice you make is the strength you put into it. Whatever you choose is what you decide on being. And whatever it may be it will be only your choice beside it.

A hopeless dreamer..

Watch closely as the world begins to surface. Take a step back and watch the glistening in every eye. Every book has its story and tonight this is mine. The world spins in darkness and the light brings me home tonight. Another leap into temptation, another look at despair.. One more chance in the little gamble. The deception is overwhelming and the city lights are all dim. The true light is missing and all I'm looking for is within. Sometimes the mistakes are one in a million but tonight they are a million to one. How can I escape this dark cold cell when all my bars feel like ice? My hands cold each time I try to bend them and I sink back into all my chains. In the distance the moonlight is calling but tonight its not my name. Star gazers on their midnight strolls stop and stare at the iron bars across my window. I look into their eyes and suddenly the chills stop for a little while. I see the stars that gleamed.. I feel the world stop trembling... I hold their hopes for a moment and then they leave and walk on into their nights.

Nothing but me..

Through the thorns and the rain, nothing but me.. Through the thoughts and the plans, nothing but me. Through the sheets of stained glass on my window the sunlight shines the bright colours. Everyone with its own story and every one with a direction. Falling leaves close my eyes, their golden browns cloud me with sunshine and yet I remain.. Stunned in a place waiting for more to come by. Waiting for golden shards of heaven to quickly make every scar alrite. Truth is my scars run deep, far beyond all the overgrown trees. They lie inside ever so still and still they lie with the sharpest tips. The pain I thought was gone so quick is here to stay to play its tricks. Kick the leaves off the ground and wallow in its glory for just a little while. Soon the leaves will start to fade and soon reality and I will share another playdate. Be still my heart from beating to quick. Be still my heart, don't fall so quick. The leaves will be gone and the emptiness will stay but one things for sure, the world will remain. The world and its endlessness will save the day, just make sure your clouds don't get in the way. Let not my stormy weather shake my core. Let not this raincloud out of its store. Save it for another day. One where the sun promises to stay. On that day, the world will be bright again..

The eternal view..

Lookin' out an open window staring at the smouldering sun. Someone catch my heart from sinking.. Take my hand and keep me from faltering. I am but a girl asking for a ray of sunshine to beam its warm light unto my darkness. Something to keep the shadows away from whispering cold breezes and sweet nothings. Looking for the angel, the light in the doorway. Wondering where my breadcrumbs went cause I seem to have lost my way. Lay it all out on the heart I wear on my sleeve. Take my missing beats and make it whole again. Far beyond a distant nightmare, a knight in shining armour always saved my day. Now it's just me and I'm okay now but still my side is bare. I hear music in the background of my day. Every lyric speaks your name. Another ryhme another listen, one more night and my heart weakens. Dreaming of things that are not real and yet in this dream I'm stuck in your reality. Like a dancer waiting for her chance to shine, I'm waiting on my dream to come alive. Drowned in obstacles I need to break lose, let me grow wings so I can soar free and unfold with you..

Glittered sandcastles..

A maiden waiting at the shore for her sailor to come home.. She builds castles out of sand and remembers the names of every wishing star. Tonight, a night like no other. The stars cease to shine upon her. The rain falls and raindrops fill her eyes. All around her glimmers brightly. All the world surrounding her in eternal beauty. The scales fall from her eyes and finally she sees the sunrise. Beams of sunlight on her face.. The beauty of every starlight, the shade of every moon dance.. What if sunlights are just a dream? What if the starlights weren't real? Be the truth that quides the seeking heart. Mine is beating two beats apart. Sync in with me as we sit on cloud 9.. Lost in our very own misbeats struck out in time.

catching daydreams..

Sunny days and starry nights, how you stir me from the inside. Get me lost in blue skies and lose everything in sight. All that seems real somehow stepped into light. Now I see faded closets waiting to be opened. Darkened lights waiting to be turned brighter. All that is real is unreal and all that is unreal might be my truth. Truth is I'm dreaming and within my dream I am real. Searching for my answers when what I needed to find was my questions. Maybe all I was made to be is a dreamer but I will be the best dreamer there is to be. My dreams are my survival and through this mess I must win.

Courage in a time of a distant tomorrow..

Half way there just isn't going to do. The pins strike sharp and I'm tired of chasing the endless wheels. Stuck in an hour glass with no escaping every grain of time. I'm shaking in my shoes tonight, alone and in the blues. Catch another falling teardrop and stab me right in the heart. Be there for one more night and then disappear for all the other days. Gather all the love you have and keep a little on the side. My love is nothing but shadowed brick walls and there is no more to keep you nice and warm. I'm watching the glass fill up with sand. I'm holding my whole world in my hand. I'm holding it close and ever so tight. Afraid I'll let more slip out of my sight.. Another sunset, another sun rise.. One more cold, dark and lonely. One more tomorrow to put behind. I want my today, my right now.. I need sweet memories and I need the tenderness I've been missing all this time. I'm done with half way streets with unlit freakin' lamp posts. I'm tired of holding an empty hand on my lap that is none other than my own. Courage, gather yourself up. Courage beat it down. Courage scream with ambered fires.. Courage come and claim your child.

Makin it through..

If I had a choice, half of your heart just won't do. Another melody is playing and I'm sinking in it's tune. The screams of each note unending as it spins all over like morning dew. Fall gently upon this petal, ever fragile in its form. Spill over me with certainty as the uncertainties of the world collide. Bring me back to solid ground, flying just isn't much fun. The starry nights were beautiful but now its time to play in the sun. Dream a little dream of me..

I don't want to be lost in dreamland. Don't want to think and feel this nothingness inside. Want to be free of you and the whispered promises of lifetimes in sparkles and sun.. I don't know what tomorrow will bring. Don't want to know where the heartache begins again. Tomorrow you'll leave and another songbird sings goodbye. Today I'm free. Another day with a mask by my side.

Dreams of gold..

I woke up this morning captivated by a dream. One with a lady who was lost in her very own distant dream. A lady dressed in simplicity and yet she wore a beautiful string of turqoise blue around her neck bejeweled with only golden adornment. She looked into the pockets of space and time and I watched her wondering what shes getting lost in. I merely uttered a few words out in a form of a simple question and in turn I received the true beauty of the life in her eyes. Though with recent marriage and her husband right by her side playing the most soothing of tunes, eyes closed and lost in his own world. She said simply and yet with so much of depth in her eyes. She said 'I woke up this morning and felt like a deer caught in the headlights. All I have left to look forward to in my life lies beyond the fields of gold.'

Lost within fields of gold one day she will be, among the glow of sunlight gleaming over the seas. My ship has sailed away from me and one day your ship will come home. Within the rasping wind I will find my sailor and I will be strong. I will wait in the fields of barley. I will dream until the dream is done..

The butterfly..

Let me tell you the story of the Butterfly lady.

She sits on her leaf pondering for a second. She picks herself up and moves on. She flutters her wings with colours so bright. She seeks her new flower while the sun beams his light. Blessed with honey all glittered in gold she can't help but have her lips caught on its taste. A wind picks up and blows her weak little legs right off that gentle petal and she is taken far far away.. Flight by flight, from day to the creeps of moonlight. She searches for her flower.. One that starts feeling like a dream. One that begins to look further and further away. She flies round in circles and yet it never leads her back to the golden taste of heaven. The winds are harsh, the place seems cursed. I'm repeating a song that tells me I'm mad but somehow I'm just lost and alone deep down inside. I'm caught between the flower and a dark place. My flower is slipping away but I remember its taste. I remember the soft petal.. I remember the feeling of home. But where? Where are you? I'm lost and searching and I'm running out of time.. I'm tired and my last little flutter has come around and there it is.. I will remember.. I will feel every last drop.. I miss it.. Flutter.. Flutter not..

The muse..

I am but a muse in this poet's dark nights. Only but a glimpse of an inspriration to spark a wonder of dark clouds. The bleeding shadow amidst the rays of the moonlight. Shake off this dying limb. Undig your nails from my frail skin. I have been but yours for all of my eternity and my nights have grown cold like the drops of rain. My heart has grown hard making itself strong but now its stopped beating and can no longer beat to my song. I have grown a shell with just me in it and the world stopped hurting for a whole joy of a minute. Be thou my shadow as I have been yours. I'd never wish that upon you for I and that endless torment have grown too fond. As the heavens look upon my tears, they see the world shiver in fear. Drop by drop the glass beads shatter. The ground is wet and the world seems better. Going about all of my mistakes I dream a dream and become a muse again.. Singing as your voice guides me through as the world is back in order and I am but yours to use. Then the day sinks in and I must wake up from the dream, i hop back into a distant echo of an angel's voice calling my name. As the sun rises higher in the sky the muse inside me dies.. The world seems quiet like nobody sees me. There are no more starlights to guide me. I am but my own and I am all I have until the moon comes and the shadow poet seeks me out and calls my name..

Fly on the wall..

The world is my stage. My playground.. I do all the crazy, all the safe. I do all the silly and I never wanna change. Now my place, my land has turned. Its become me and suddenly all is not right and safe. Once again the rails are gone and I'm left to climb the bars on my own. No safety net to catch me and no more hand to guide me through. This is all I asked for and yet I turn into the wallpaper by your wall. I become the wonder of colours that brighten up the room and yet thats all I will become. I will always be the paper that people leave behind. The one to colourful to bring outside. Like a bird in a cage waiting to sing for your return. Ready to flap my wings and yet I don't want you to open that cage door. I am asleep and all the lights are turned on. I am awake but my eyes are closed. The clouds above me are no more and yet I am darkness waiting to consume your world. Hold on tight because its going to be a long ride. I am my insanity and somehow the insanity isnt only on the inside. Why do you look past all that is seen on me? Why can't you see all the cuts and bruises I'm causing. One day you'll know and you'll love me less. One day I'll become your very own wallpaper, just like all the rest..

we've got tonight..

The nights are coming to past and all I think of is my truth. Spinned and twirled and now I'm still.. Water ripples are around me though I lie unmoved in the middle. Round and round the circles get bigger and yet, somehow.. Somehow I am searching. What made sense maybe doesn't so much anymore. A little sparrow's try and his own little first flight. I'm caught up in all the lights and glamour. Dazed by the glitter and all the shiny armour. Missing out on all the important things. I miss you.. I miss not caring about what things are going to be. I'm tired of worrying about whether or not things are meant to be. Maybe fairytales don't come true but then again this is more like reality. It doesn't seem like a fairytale.. Doesn't seem unreal.. The heartache is real, the crazy mistakes and thoughts are real.. The love is real.. The future is real. What more should a person look for? What more is there to ask. I'm in love with the risk of change and yet somehow I look forward to the change of heart. I don't understand me just as much as you. I don't know where the heck I'm headed to. All I know is I've got you tonight. I've got us and I've got all our crazy built up inside.

Away with these ashes..

My heart pounds as I hold in another scream. Another monster too devious to kill. Won't the shadows go back into their closets? Won't the constant beating drum finally rest and let me close my eyes. I no longer love the pain of all there is. I've become cold and soft like ice on the touch of a giant. Trying so hard to keep it together so the weight doesn't send me drowning through and yet he persists.. Leaving the ice flakes shattered, scattered away from each other. I melt away and form with others and still my heart aches for the ones that held me together. A triumph is what I seek and yet there isn't a tale of such waiting to be told. Instead I'm lost in tragedies, stories of the untold. Insanity strikes at my waking mind. Will I sleep another useless restless night? My eyes tired, darkened at the brim.. Soon they flood and yet still, theres nothing. No more to scream, no more to cry.. Theres no more to say because theres no more strength inside. No more of me to give up and try.. The sea will come and the wind will blow the ashes of insanity away.. But this part of me, will stay. In silence, within me where it's existance will never be betrayed..

angel eyes..

Such a numbing feeling, stemming from the heart. Running through my fingers.. Wondering when did it all start? Sitting in silence before a familiar face, somehow you know me but don't remember the time or place. Lovers once met in destiny's lair somehow now lost in despair. Like a maiden locked way up high in a tower, screaming out loud with no knight in shining armour. I set my hair down the golden stair but somehow my knight misses it and goes running back the same way. Silent killers sneaking in through the dark, where is all this loneliness coming from? All the hidden little thoughts, the broken closets of shadows locked up. Sing our harmony like we once danced to our duet. Bring me back to my poetry of where you and I both met. I can't be your guide with lights shining bright. Now you need to be my subtle hand and lead me through the night. Sweet sorrow leave my side. Bring me back my somedays that have somehow disappeared in the stillness of the new flock of wings taking flight. Send me my angel so that somehow I may just enjoy my true love;s gaze once again..

sail away with me..

An old familiar symphony plays behind all the silly masks, a tune so rich in solitude that no other man can hear it bask. Way beneath the sunlit sky, way beyond you and I's. High and low it twirls and twirls as far as the wind can blow. Caught in a dance within this wind, I can't find my way out. The music fades into my mind and after time it becomes a part of me. Twilight dancers and a moonlight gaze. Crazy merchants with windows glazed. Return to me my numbing potion. Let us be travellers on the sea. The endless wind will blow my way and forever will we sail further and further away.

Lost

The realm of not knowing.. Once we start our dance in solitude, the world then slips away. The wind spins as one with us and yet we get caught in the rain. Dreamers wake up from forsaken dreams. They come back to whats true and real. Maybe this time will be the last. Maybe this time will be made to pass all the tests. Nobody left to tell me their story. Nobody dares for my mistakes were gory. Look beyond every line and measure and remember this girl inside who once begun the dance for you. Take my hand and walk me through. I've lost all memory of the dancer's steps. Lost all memory of the dancer herself. Complete these steps that I need to recall and whisper in my ear to remind me not to fall. A dreamer's boat is far past the ocean bed, I'm waiting right here because I know it's time to grow up and make some new footsteps.

My head is filled with noise. Drowning out all sense of reasoning. No rhyme goes by without blurring past my aching thoughts. Be silent and fade away. Do it now and let me stand again. The pain is too great for one to carry. The noise drowns me and keeps me dwelling. The past, the present, the unseen future. Be there for now and not the other. Swirl in circles much like cream on cake full of sugar though noone can bare its fullness of taste. Forget the world tonight and all its lifeless tragedies. Think not of now for it will only be one more of life's parodies. Look not into the distance, the light is blinding the sight. Drown out the past and rely on my own new song. Let me breathe now and let me have my time to be lost. I need to hang on to me for I fear one day she will be lost.

A different daydream...

Everyday is a different daydream... Every one leaving me a little further behind. I find myself drifting in music lost in little beats of time. Let me live a little sunshine... Something to dry away the dark. Till tomorrows are nothing but a hidden rhyme. Every note of my song is for you although it pierces my very being. This song I sing right now is mine and right now I sing the blues... The stars in my skies are fading quickly and the only one I see is you. It feels like I'm reaching too high, asking the moon to share his light. Give me more time to bask beneath as he forever seems to take endless flight. The stars are becoming so unreal. The burning lights seem so dim. I'm holding on to fantasies, to maybes, what ifs and what could have been. Starlight, starbright, I wish I may, I wish I might, Have my wish come true tonight. Fall into my hands like raindrops on water... Whisper in my ear something I need to hear. Tell me tomorrow is knocking at my door. Let me run to it swiftly with you in my hand so that I may see it when I answer. Oh daydreams please give me my nights.. I need to go to sleep now and hold my lover in my arms... Leave not this person empty in her bed. No, just give her time to rest her head. Time it is and nothing else... Only time parts us and only time will tell...

Another crushed hope...

If only you cared to know the half of it.. You claim you see me for who I am and yet deep down inside you fear that I am but a sleeping baby. I'm more than meets the eye with leaps and bounds quite far behind. I've skipped through obstacles and nasty winds. I'm here at my first peak and I needed a pit stop. You urge me to move past this and one day you may just see me break right down. Sit down and tell me a story just like you always do and I will listen but when will it be my turn? Maybe we've reached a time where it's time you listen to me because here I am. Wearing my stories on my face. Look at the shattered creases of once crystal filled eyes. As the shards of glass pierce my heart when you look away the crystals fall right down leaving their scrape marks right where my eyes ache. Washing away the sight they dream to see. Take another big step and you will see that you have once again crushed another one of my little dreams. Let me be amazing because I am what I am. Look me in the eye and tell me you see me. I'm standing right infront of you, beating heart in hand and all. Don't take it from me just listen to the rhythm of the beats and see that it would have once matched yours...

The letter..

Open your scarlet letter. Bring the ink to its light. Let the violet poetry dance in sweet delight. Feel the words surround you cause right now I wish I had my arms around you. Thoughts swim inside my mind, like shadows they are so alive. Spinning in circles of symmetry. Touch that seal and feel my lips pressed together in a kiss. Something said once in some kind of story. Now I feel the world is without me. Because when I found you it's been just you and me. I feel we've danced once upon a distant dream although your smell still lingers on me. Remember when the big ball stopped spinning when both you and I just stopped breathing. When all in time did not matter and all we had was each other. All the actors around us are lost in awe as you and I teach them how to soar. Some sit back in jealousy as they judge with eyes so wide and green. I'll hold you close to my heart because one day this letter will crumble apart. The words in ink will fade away but these feelings inside me will remain. The simple things carved into my heart, like initials on an oak tree but with a silly start. Remember always to open each letter, breathe the ink that I put to paper. Feel my kiss on every sentence and live the day knowing I'm better. You make it worth living the day because you are the poet shadow prancing in my head. Someday I'll join you and we'll sing in the rain but now I'll let you linger. Like a phantom that guides my weary hand.

A new twilight

How do I begin to pretend this isn't hard? It's something so wonderfully colourful and amazing waiting right before my eyes but my hand can't reach beyond this window. Sealed shut until time takes its place my cold body lies lifeless and alone until you come and save me from the night. As one said in a vanilla twilight, I lie awake while you're asleep and my hands stay lonely without you. Every tear that falls is falling for you. For every memory I hold dear in my heart, I promise my dear that these tears can't be helped. Don't worry hunny. I know you just like you know me and I know we'll make it through...

let the angels guide you on your lofty path..

Corridors lined with silent ghosts. Threatening the life you loved and trust. Things you never thought to be the silent rest has come abruptly to put us all to the test. Think again on what we once stood by and watch it slowly pass us by. Helpless though you and I may be atleast my feet stand together firmly. I'll blow the winds of change your way and hope to God that the rainbow sees you there. Find the pot at the other end before the dark cloud comes and puts out the rainbow's end. Find the gold droplets of sunshine rays and know that it will light up that golden brick way. There you will find us all with open hearts waiting for another big bright tommorow to come. Never give up on lighting your path. Your heart is what you wish it and you must promise to never give it up. Stay true to your journey and you will see your star lit way. The milky way calls your name, awaiting your return. It waits the day you ride their waves to once again show how bright you shine...

Things to cry about...

No more numbers because that is to get rid of these tears. All better now that I'm here. Though I do have more inside of me still. These are the words that just need to go unsealed...

I wish not to trouble the world in it's infinate slumber. This is my story and I write each letter. Hearts unfold before me but mine shall remain lonely because the world has enough trouble. Mine is but for my dwelling. Do not fret, because the lights are spinning. The world goes on even without my song. Don't forget whose hearts are breaking. Most of all, never forget who stays by you until it mends. I will be here for your taking. Untill one day you choose to take me. I stand by you to hold your hand as you are mending. Just remember that I'm still broken and the girl inside still lies there with her head in the palm of her hands. I seem alright but my shadows are close behind. This is my story and I need you to help me put the ink of my past aside.

Blow like the wind these torn, stained pages of my life. Stay and bind the new ones tight. Refill the liquid of sweet violet blue and write the rest of my pages with me. I trust you will one day forget, all the worries in life that make you sad. I hope with me you will be fine because soon my love, I will need you to help me turn my doubts and demons right around.

Sorry for the drama..

Theres an absence in your eyes where i once saw a deep coloured light. You've given in to the everything of tomorrows past. It devastates when all around you but one laughs. Time to move with the times and accept what you will one day see. When all around you joins in but me.

I held on to the ends of straws until i realised that you were breaking in my grasp. Flock now with the birds aflight. Take leave and don't creep away in the night. Nothing should happen in silence from now. This is the music, one of the many verses to the song. Its sad how now we both don't sing along.

Take a breath and take this all in. What I mean now is so simply seen. Imagine walking in where strangers know you. When all around me have no clue. The surprise I feel when I sit and stare when all about your world spins and tells. Tales of deception, fraud and new life. This is your new story. A new chapter in your own light.

I see your desire to break free, to let loose and let go. My friend, I see you. So, here it is. Take my wings. I'll set you free.

faith?

Sometimes night falls and your worst fears come into play. You shake your imagination off and the truth just somehow seems exactly the same. It may not be an exageration and maybe the world was right. Why should I be sitting here waiting for a wrong to become right. The faith is faltering and everything seems a mess. When is this castle going to fall to pieces? How long are these clouds going to last? Take a deep breath and stop for a moment. Let me catch my breath. Maybe all things happen for a reason and lets hope that this time it's made to last.

Of Diamond Raindrops & Golden leaves..

Maybe I've been masked with rainbows and sunshine. Figments that aren't real. Today I saw the sunrise and the whole world seemed to suddenly become a blaze. The firey clouds exumed rays of wonders. Gold encrusted leaves that shine like jewels on a crown. This is my world.. This is where I'm meant to be. Among the flocks of birds that cross the sun and the green of the mountains that bow to no one. Break free of the prison hourglass and scream as loudly as I want. My world is my freedom and my freedom is where I shall always be...

when i look at the sky

A passage found from a lost time...

For this reason I bow my knees before the Father,
from whom every family in heaven and on earth takes its name.
I pray that,according to the riches of his glory,
he may grant that you may be strengthened in your inner being with
Power Through His Spirit
and that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith,
as you are being rooted in love,
I pray that you may have the power to comprehend,
with all the saints, what is the breadth and length and height and depth,
and to know the love of christ that surpasses knowledge,
so that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.