A line across the bed..

Well, while i have the downs still buzzing in my head. Thought id squeeze out a lil bit of words that lie well together.

It started across the room from here, you saw me standing far away. Maybe it was part of a plan and maybe its just something we wanted to believe. Life was cold and I needed a hand, I was falling apart and it just seemed like no one was there. I walked alone in the dark, feeling around a familiar path and then I found a little speck. A little clean bright spot that sat so well in my hand. I picked it up and cleaned it up, the light shined so bright I thought I'd eventually go blind. The oh so familiar sight of pitch black and the seemless sounds of muffled voices seemed a little clearer. A little brighter. I keep the little shiny speck in my pocket. Saving it from the rain clouds that still hover. Maybe one day I'll wear you around my neck and maybe let you lead the way. Right now though, these rain clouds are mine to bear. Drop by drop it leaves me drenched and alone I'll walk in the dark despair. You'll be the light to guide me out, you will be the one who brightens the dark but I'll save you for another day. When the muffled sounds go away and the rain clouds are no more of their dullest grey. It will be your hand in mine, and whats left is just the sun. I promise the night will one day turn bright and we'll know that the stars have finally aligned. Just for us, side by side. You, me and the little bright speck inside.

Its time to run away from these thoughts screaming inside my head. Time to take a deep breath and plunge myself into the depths of darkness. Where sight is no more my own but yours alone. Screams are quiet trying to find their way. It is about the time of about the day to make this thoughts die down again. Hush my conscience let the darkness come through. Its time for us to grow up and see life and all its truths..

I'm standing in the dark with a candle lit by sparks. A light dimming with every teardrop that falls from the cheek of my face. Another blink, another stream comes rolling down. Be still.. Emotions be still.. my heart feels still, a little less than calm. Oh sweet remedies please come a knockin on my door.

Devastation

Ill leave a rose at the stone of where our love lies. Ill weep a little and maybe die slowly inside. Ill talk to the plants that grow wildly by its side. The life of our love waiting to break through the stiffling earth of mistakes past. The death of faith once so strong, loses everything and weakens from the inside. What we had was pure symmetry, laughs and pain balled up in one. What has left us all dried up so quickly. Everything just refuses to hang on. I feel you here inside of me, a little voice inside my heart. Telling me to just keep tryin until there is nothing left. Remind me again of how it is. Assure me again of how its gonna be. Something keeps telling me its all gonna be worth it one day but right now, its all just the most piercing pain. Be back in MY arms, come home to me. Give me your voice and I promise you'll always have all of me.. Rest in peace my love, may the light bring you home..

Always and forever..

You are all I needed, all I wanted. You are the moon, the sun, the rain and the stars that stare so brightly into my eyes. I watched you become who you are, being the one person who believes so greatly in the capabilty to keep moving on. You've been so brave, so strong at heart. I'm so very proud of you and I so wish I could have the chance to tell you that its okay. It will be okay.. It may not be perfect but I'm here, you'll always be here, this will always be here.. Remember that it all has to happen, remember that it's all hard for a reason. Breathe and live everyday, feel the pain and one day you will be able to be thankful that you don't have to feel it. And, as they all say so often, you don't know what you're missing until you don't have it. This is the time to stay strong, this is the time to stand alone. You may grow cold and it may get dark but remember dear that in the end there will be a light. It may not shine as brightly as you'd like but it will be there to save you from the night.. What is lost is never gone, what is treasured will always be borne. Learn what you can while you can learn it and leave a legacy right along with it. Be the best you can be and breathe all the fresh air you can breathe. Love what is yours and dream of what could be. Last of all remember that sometimes, thats just where it needs to be..

The legend of bagger vance

My favourite part of the legend of bagger vance -

I don't want to do anything that might disrupt your concentration...but since our little encounter, I've been thinking...Ten years and not a single, solitary word from you?You don't do that to someone you love.I deserve some correspondence, and some indication of what you felt. I don't know what happened to you. But whatever it was...it wasn't as unbearable...as a woman waiting with no end in sight...wondering if she's remembered or forgotten by the man she loves. You never even said you were sorry. Now I'm supposed to run into your arms and melt like butter on a hot muffin? I'm sorry, Adele. I am truly sorry. It's too late for "I'm sorry", Junuh! Then tell me what to say. It was too long ago. No, it wasn't. It was just a moment ago.

My Pre-Christmas Cheer

Where are you christmas? Where are the smiling faces and coloured lights? All I see is darkness and things that are so awefully black and white. Where is my christmas miracle? My one wish come true? Where is MY christmas? It's left.. The same as you... I miss the laughs the dumb jokes, the hugs and the patience. I miss all the times you smiled at me when all I did was make a mess.. Nobody gets me like you do,nobodys gonna be the same. I so hope this pain goes away. Help me wipe away these tears one more time and help me chase away these fears of being left behind. I need to breakout of this stupid mess alone this time and it's not going as planned. I'm getting weaker day by day and these drops of missing you won't go away. My poor heart stops at the thought of you, just so I can hold back these leaking eyes.. My lungs forget to breath and I get all choked up inside. Where is my christmas? When will it come? Don't I get something nice from santa this time roun?