Another crushed hope...

If only you cared to know the half of it.. You claim you see me for who I am and yet deep down inside you fear that I am but a sleeping baby. I'm more than meets the eye with leaps and bounds quite far behind. I've skipped through obstacles and nasty winds. I'm here at my first peak and I needed a pit stop. You urge me to move past this and one day you may just see me break right down. Sit down and tell me a story just like you always do and I will listen but when will it be my turn? Maybe we've reached a time where it's time you listen to me because here I am. Wearing my stories on my face. Look at the shattered creases of once crystal filled eyes. As the shards of glass pierce my heart when you look away the crystals fall right down leaving their scrape marks right where my eyes ache. Washing away the sight they dream to see. Take another big step and you will see that you have once again crushed another one of my little dreams. Let me be amazing because I am what I am. Look me in the eye and tell me you see me. I'm standing right infront of you, beating heart in hand and all. Don't take it from me just listen to the rhythm of the beats and see that it would have once matched yours...

The letter..

Open your scarlet letter. Bring the ink to its light. Let the violet poetry dance in sweet delight. Feel the words surround you cause right now I wish I had my arms around you. Thoughts swim inside my mind, like shadows they are so alive. Spinning in circles of symmetry. Touch that seal and feel my lips pressed together in a kiss. Something said once in some kind of story. Now I feel the world is without me. Because when I found you it's been just you and me. I feel we've danced once upon a distant dream although your smell still lingers on me. Remember when the big ball stopped spinning when both you and I just stopped breathing. When all in time did not matter and all we had was each other. All the actors around us are lost in awe as you and I teach them how to soar. Some sit back in jealousy as they judge with eyes so wide and green. I'll hold you close to my heart because one day this letter will crumble apart. The words in ink will fade away but these feelings inside me will remain. The simple things carved into my heart, like initials on an oak tree but with a silly start. Remember always to open each letter, breathe the ink that I put to paper. Feel my kiss on every sentence and live the day knowing I'm better. You make it worth living the day because you are the poet shadow prancing in my head. Someday I'll join you and we'll sing in the rain but now I'll let you linger. Like a phantom that guides my weary hand.

A new twilight

How do I begin to pretend this isn't hard? It's something so wonderfully colourful and amazing waiting right before my eyes but my hand can't reach beyond this window. Sealed shut until time takes its place my cold body lies lifeless and alone until you come and save me from the night. As one said in a vanilla twilight, I lie awake while you're asleep and my hands stay lonely without you. Every tear that falls is falling for you. For every memory I hold dear in my heart, I promise my dear that these tears can't be helped. Don't worry hunny. I know you just like you know me and I know we'll make it through...

let the angels guide you on your lofty path..

Corridors lined with silent ghosts. Threatening the life you loved and trust. Things you never thought to be the silent rest has come abruptly to put us all to the test. Think again on what we once stood by and watch it slowly pass us by. Helpless though you and I may be atleast my feet stand together firmly. I'll blow the winds of change your way and hope to God that the rainbow sees you there. Find the pot at the other end before the dark cloud comes and puts out the rainbow's end. Find the gold droplets of sunshine rays and know that it will light up that golden brick way. There you will find us all with open hearts waiting for another big bright tommorow to come. Never give up on lighting your path. Your heart is what you wish it and you must promise to never give it up. Stay true to your journey and you will see your star lit way. The milky way calls your name, awaiting your return. It waits the day you ride their waves to once again show how bright you shine...

Things to cry about...

No more numbers because that is to get rid of these tears. All better now that I'm here. Though I do have more inside of me still. These are the words that just need to go unsealed...

I wish not to trouble the world in it's infinate slumber. This is my story and I write each letter. Hearts unfold before me but mine shall remain lonely because the world has enough trouble. Mine is but for my dwelling. Do not fret, because the lights are spinning. The world goes on even without my song. Don't forget whose hearts are breaking. Most of all, never forget who stays by you until it mends. I will be here for your taking. Untill one day you choose to take me. I stand by you to hold your hand as you are mending. Just remember that I'm still broken and the girl inside still lies there with her head in the palm of her hands. I seem alright but my shadows are close behind. This is my story and I need you to help me put the ink of my past aside.

Blow like the wind these torn, stained pages of my life. Stay and bind the new ones tight. Refill the liquid of sweet violet blue and write the rest of my pages with me. I trust you will one day forget, all the worries in life that make you sad. I hope with me you will be fine because soon my love, I will need you to help me turn my doubts and demons right around.

Sorry for the drama..

Theres an absence in your eyes where i once saw a deep coloured light. You've given in to the everything of tomorrows past. It devastates when all around you but one laughs. Time to move with the times and accept what you will one day see. When all around you joins in but me.

I held on to the ends of straws until i realised that you were breaking in my grasp. Flock now with the birds aflight. Take leave and don't creep away in the night. Nothing should happen in silence from now. This is the music, one of the many verses to the song. Its sad how now we both don't sing along.

Take a breath and take this all in. What I mean now is so simply seen. Imagine walking in where strangers know you. When all around me have no clue. The surprise I feel when I sit and stare when all about your world spins and tells. Tales of deception, fraud and new life. This is your new story. A new chapter in your own light.

I see your desire to break free, to let loose and let go. My friend, I see you. So, here it is. Take my wings. I'll set you free.

faith?

Sometimes night falls and your worst fears come into play. You shake your imagination off and the truth just somehow seems exactly the same. It may not be an exageration and maybe the world was right. Why should I be sitting here waiting for a wrong to become right. The faith is faltering and everything seems a mess. When is this castle going to fall to pieces? How long are these clouds going to last? Take a deep breath and stop for a moment. Let me catch my breath. Maybe all things happen for a reason and lets hope that this time it's made to last.