A new twilight

How do I begin to pretend this isn't hard? It's something so wonderfully colourful and amazing waiting right before my eyes but my hand can't reach beyond this window. Sealed shut until time takes its place my cold body lies lifeless and alone until you come and save me from the night. As one said in a vanilla twilight, I lie awake while you're asleep and my hands stay lonely without you. Every tear that falls is falling for you. For every memory I hold dear in my heart, I promise my dear that these tears can't be helped. Don't worry hunny. I know you just like you know me and I know we'll make it through...

let the angels guide you on your lofty path..

Corridors lined with silent ghosts. Threatening the life you loved and trust. Things you never thought to be the silent rest has come abruptly to put us all to the test. Think again on what we once stood by and watch it slowly pass us by. Helpless though you and I may be atleast my feet stand together firmly. I'll blow the winds of change your way and hope to God that the rainbow sees you there. Find the pot at the other end before the dark cloud comes and puts out the rainbow's end. Find the gold droplets of sunshine rays and know that it will light up that golden brick way. There you will find us all with open hearts waiting for another big bright tommorow to come. Never give up on lighting your path. Your heart is what you wish it and you must promise to never give it up. Stay true to your journey and you will see your star lit way. The milky way calls your name, awaiting your return. It waits the day you ride their waves to once again show how bright you shine...

Things to cry about...

No more numbers because that is to get rid of these tears. All better now that I'm here. Though I do have more inside of me still. These are the words that just need to go unsealed...

I wish not to trouble the world in it's infinate slumber. This is my story and I write each letter. Hearts unfold before me but mine shall remain lonely because the world has enough trouble. Mine is but for my dwelling. Do not fret, because the lights are spinning. The world goes on even without my song. Don't forget whose hearts are breaking. Most of all, never forget who stays by you until it mends. I will be here for your taking. Untill one day you choose to take me. I stand by you to hold your hand as you are mending. Just remember that I'm still broken and the girl inside still lies there with her head in the palm of her hands. I seem alright but my shadows are close behind. This is my story and I need you to help me put the ink of my past aside.

Blow like the wind these torn, stained pages of my life. Stay and bind the new ones tight. Refill the liquid of sweet violet blue and write the rest of my pages with me. I trust you will one day forget, all the worries in life that make you sad. I hope with me you will be fine because soon my love, I will need you to help me turn my doubts and demons right around.

Sorry for the drama..

Theres an absence in your eyes where i once saw a deep coloured light. You've given in to the everything of tomorrows past. It devastates when all around you but one laughs. Time to move with the times and accept what you will one day see. When all around you joins in but me.

I held on to the ends of straws until i realised that you were breaking in my grasp. Flock now with the birds aflight. Take leave and don't creep away in the night. Nothing should happen in silence from now. This is the music, one of the many verses to the song. Its sad how now we both don't sing along.

Take a breath and take this all in. What I mean now is so simply seen. Imagine walking in where strangers know you. When all around me have no clue. The surprise I feel when I sit and stare when all about your world spins and tells. Tales of deception, fraud and new life. This is your new story. A new chapter in your own light.

I see your desire to break free, to let loose and let go. My friend, I see you. So, here it is. Take my wings. I'll set you free.

faith?

Sometimes night falls and your worst fears come into play. You shake your imagination off and the truth just somehow seems exactly the same. It may not be an exageration and maybe the world was right. Why should I be sitting here waiting for a wrong to become right. The faith is faltering and everything seems a mess. When is this castle going to fall to pieces? How long are these clouds going to last? Take a deep breath and stop for a moment. Let me catch my breath. Maybe all things happen for a reason and lets hope that this time it's made to last.

Of Diamond Raindrops & Golden leaves..

Maybe I've been masked with rainbows and sunshine. Figments that aren't real. Today I saw the sunrise and the whole world seemed to suddenly become a blaze. The firey clouds exumed rays of wonders. Gold encrusted leaves that shine like jewels on a crown. This is my world.. This is where I'm meant to be. Among the flocks of birds that cross the sun and the green of the mountains that bow to no one. Break free of the prison hourglass and scream as loudly as I want. My world is my freedom and my freedom is where I shall always be...

when i look at the sky