A passage found from a lost time...

For this reason I bow my knees before the Father,
from whom every family in heaven and on earth takes its name.
I pray that,according to the riches of his glory,
he may grant that you may be strengthened in your inner being with
Power Through His Spirit
and that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith,
as you are being rooted in love,
I pray that you may have the power to comprehend,
with all the saints, what is the breadth and length and height and depth,
and to know the love of christ that surpasses knowledge,
so that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.

Stars have fallen,
No more clouds my eyes.
I see the world crumbling,
Pieces of life flying by.

Exams are over. Woohoo? Not quite.. Try painful reminders of the life you once put behind. Building love up into pretty little castles, waiting for the world to stop and stare. Suddenly it gets washed over and all you're left with is your buckets and your sand.. You search to catch up with everything you missed and then you find that they didn't even bother leaving you a trail behind. Breathe they say, you have time. What use is time and an unending ticking clock when it's just you with all your unfulfilled hopes to bring you down from inside. Love sweeps over me but like little glitter on art. It makes you feel all pretty again and then you realize its gonna be alot of time and alot of work. Sparkles in your eyes, warmth in your hugs.. Make me feel better again cause I can't tell you how much I need you now. I'm all alone with no one to care, won't somebody see me and save me from this hell?

Collide

The dawn is breaking

A light shining through

You're barely waking

And I'm tangled up in you,

yeah

I'm open, you're closed

Where I follow,you'll go

I worry I won't see your face

Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme

Out of the doubt that fills my mind

I somehow find you and I collide

I'm quiet you know

You make a first impression

I've found I'm scared to know

I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the stars refuse to shine

Out of the back you fall in time

I somehow find you and I collide

Don't stop here

I lost my place

I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme

Out of the doubt that fills your mind

You finally find you and I collide

You finally find you and I collide

You finally find you and I collide...

I've forgotten how painful it is to be amongst the world and yet feel all alone. When the way everyone looks at you just seems like a glance. I must admit my heart has grown cold. But even if it were frozen, I would feel the pieces breaking in it's core. Lost and buried before my time. All by experiencing more than what I could at the wrong times. Searched and searched for that one call. Looking for the one thing, one place I could truly count on. Day by day the light turns night, leaving me lacking the life I once learnt to like. Symmetry and poetry was all that I sought. Yet, today... I'm left alone..

so the lost girl sings..

There she dances,
The lost girl in Mephis,
Eyes lost in teardust,
Skipping life by.

She twirls her hair in darkness,
Then sits by the stairs,
She sings of lost lovers,
and screams in despair.

The tales she once told,
Have all become cold,
The dreams she once had,
Are the ones she now dreads.

All she can hear are the ryhmes in her head,
The lost story untold,
The truth of the death,
Of one spirit child that never really left.

Colder and safer

I'm spinnin round in circles,
waiting to fall down.
Nobody catch me,
I'm doing this on my own.

Tables are turning,
Everything fades.
Something feels colder,
Everyday...

Your touch is warm,
Just like the sun.
Keeping me safe,
No need to run...

Cause nothing really lasts forever,
Nothing but this feeling after.
I'm screaming,
I'm cleaning,
I'm breathing anew.

I feel you,
I feel you...

Don't let go. But let me fall... Let me fall..

OMG! The stress is taking over me. Or atleast I hope that this is because of the stress.. I feel the downs. The ever faithful dissapointment and blues... Deadliest freakin emotion that consumes the being.. Wishing you were somehow here again. Wishing you could try a little harder to care. I don't wanna be this feeling. I don't know if theres anything else telling me I can. I've worn out my sources. Exhausted every feeling within me. All thats left to feel is me. The mask is gone. I'm wearing this smile. The laughter is fading and right now, it feels like theres no more inside.