Collide

The dawn is breaking

A light shining through

You're barely waking

And I'm tangled up in you,

yeah

I'm open, you're closed

Where I follow,you'll go

I worry I won't see your face

Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme

Out of the doubt that fills my mind

I somehow find you and I collide

I'm quiet you know

You make a first impression

I've found I'm scared to know

I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the stars refuse to shine

Out of the back you fall in time

I somehow find you and I collide

Don't stop here

I lost my place

I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme

Out of the doubt that fills your mind

You finally find you and I collide

You finally find you and I collide

You finally find you and I collide...

I've forgotten how painful it is to be amongst the world and yet feel all alone. When the way everyone looks at you just seems like a glance. I must admit my heart has grown cold. But even if it were frozen, I would feel the pieces breaking in it's core. Lost and buried before my time. All by experiencing more than what I could at the wrong times. Searched and searched for that one call. Looking for the one thing, one place I could truly count on. Day by day the light turns night, leaving me lacking the life I once learnt to like. Symmetry and poetry was all that I sought. Yet, today... I'm left alone..

so the lost girl sings..

There she dances,
The lost girl in Mephis,
Eyes lost in teardust,
Skipping life by.

She twirls her hair in darkness,
Then sits by the stairs,
She sings of lost lovers,
and screams in despair.

The tales she once told,
Have all become cold,
The dreams she once had,
Are the ones she now dreads.

All she can hear are the ryhmes in her head,
The lost story untold,
The truth of the death,
Of one spirit child that never really left.

Colder and safer

I'm spinnin round in circles,
waiting to fall down.
Nobody catch me,
I'm doing this on my own.

Tables are turning,
Everything fades.
Something feels colder,
Everyday...

Your touch is warm,
Just like the sun.
Keeping me safe,
No need to run...

Cause nothing really lasts forever,
Nothing but this feeling after.
I'm screaming,
I'm cleaning,
I'm breathing anew.

I feel you,
I feel you...

Don't let go. But let me fall... Let me fall..

OMG! The stress is taking over me. Or atleast I hope that this is because of the stress.. I feel the downs. The ever faithful dissapointment and blues... Deadliest freakin emotion that consumes the being.. Wishing you were somehow here again. Wishing you could try a little harder to care. I don't wanna be this feeling. I don't know if theres anything else telling me I can. I've worn out my sources. Exhausted every feeling within me. All thats left to feel is me. The mask is gone. I'm wearing this smile. The laughter is fading and right now, it feels like theres no more inside.

Dreaming my dreams..

I'm not a little girl trying to be all grown up. I'm all grown up and my world is here. The time will come when only my thoughts remain and untill that day, everything else is still going to change. I don't want to be the one dragged down into life screaming. I want to embrace and live every part of it. Let this be my time. My moment. Let me make this leap and just be proud that I'm making it. Accept this for this is who I am, I'm not broken because I choose to stand. Stay close and don't let go of my hand. I still want you here by my side. I just need you to trust that I know whats right in my heart. Tonight I'll try and maybe tommorow I'll fall but that will be when I need you to catch me. Don't keep me from leaping into this cloud...

Don't be blinded by the past. Let things unfold and make them last. Maybe if people change the world will see. Maybe it won't and I will be set free. It seems hard and I don't want it to be. It was perfect. So very clear and it was too good to be true. This is why I give up. This is why I clipped my wings together and painted my smile black. Cold from the world, not feeling anything. Undo this feeling, let me go back to my masks that kept me safe. Stop these tears from falling down my already scarred face. I'm done leaping, so afraid. Scream a scream and lift this cursed downfall off of me. I'm tired. Afraid. Leave me be, with my guitar and painted smiles across my face.