so the lost girl sings..

There she dances,
The lost girl in Mephis,
Eyes lost in teardust,
Skipping life by.

She twirls her hair in darkness,
Then sits by the stairs,
She sings of lost lovers,
and screams in despair.

The tales she once told,
Have all become cold,
The dreams she once had,
Are the ones she now dreads.

All she can hear are the ryhmes in her head,
The lost story untold,
The truth of the death,
Of one spirit child that never really left.

Colder and safer

I'm spinnin round in circles,
waiting to fall down.
Nobody catch me,
I'm doing this on my own.

Tables are turning,
Everything fades.
Something feels colder,
Everyday...

Your touch is warm,
Just like the sun.
Keeping me safe,
No need to run...

Cause nothing really lasts forever,
Nothing but this feeling after.
I'm screaming,
I'm cleaning,
I'm breathing anew.

I feel you,
I feel you...

Don't let go. But let me fall... Let me fall..

OMG! The stress is taking over me. Or atleast I hope that this is because of the stress.. I feel the downs. The ever faithful dissapointment and blues... Deadliest freakin emotion that consumes the being.. Wishing you were somehow here again. Wishing you could try a little harder to care. I don't wanna be this feeling. I don't know if theres anything else telling me I can. I've worn out my sources. Exhausted every feeling within me. All thats left to feel is me. The mask is gone. I'm wearing this smile. The laughter is fading and right now, it feels like theres no more inside.

Dreaming my dreams..

I'm not a little girl trying to be all grown up. I'm all grown up and my world is here. The time will come when only my thoughts remain and untill that day, everything else is still going to change. I don't want to be the one dragged down into life screaming. I want to embrace and live every part of it. Let this be my time. My moment. Let me make this leap and just be proud that I'm making it. Accept this for this is who I am, I'm not broken because I choose to stand. Stay close and don't let go of my hand. I still want you here by my side. I just need you to trust that I know whats right in my heart. Tonight I'll try and maybe tommorow I'll fall but that will be when I need you to catch me. Don't keep me from leaping into this cloud...

Don't be blinded by the past. Let things unfold and make them last. Maybe if people change the world will see. Maybe it won't and I will be set free. It seems hard and I don't want it to be. It was perfect. So very clear and it was too good to be true. This is why I give up. This is why I clipped my wings together and painted my smile black. Cold from the world, not feeling anything. Undo this feeling, let me go back to my masks that kept me safe. Stop these tears from falling down my already scarred face. I'm done leaping, so afraid. Scream a scream and lift this cursed downfall off of me. I'm tired. Afraid. Leave me be, with my guitar and painted smiles across my face.

A line across the bed..

Well, while i have the downs still buzzing in my head. Thought id squeeze out a lil bit of words that lie well together.

It started across the room from here, you saw me standing far away. Maybe it was part of a plan and maybe its just something we wanted to believe. Life was cold and I needed a hand, I was falling apart and it just seemed like no one was there. I walked alone in the dark, feeling around a familiar path and then I found a little speck. A little clean bright spot that sat so well in my hand. I picked it up and cleaned it up, the light shined so bright I thought I'd eventually go blind. The oh so familiar sight of pitch black and the seemless sounds of muffled voices seemed a little clearer. A little brighter. I keep the little shiny speck in my pocket. Saving it from the rain clouds that still hover. Maybe one day I'll wear you around my neck and maybe let you lead the way. Right now though, these rain clouds are mine to bear. Drop by drop it leaves me drenched and alone I'll walk in the dark despair. You'll be the light to guide me out, you will be the one who brightens the dark but I'll save you for another day. When the muffled sounds go away and the rain clouds are no more of their dullest grey. It will be your hand in mine, and whats left is just the sun. I promise the night will one day turn bright and we'll know that the stars have finally aligned. Just for us, side by side. You, me and the little bright speck inside.

Its time to run away from these thoughts screaming inside my head. Time to take a deep breath and plunge myself into the depths of darkness. Where sight is no more my own but yours alone. Screams are quiet trying to find their way. It is about the time of about the day to make this thoughts die down again. Hush my conscience let the darkness come through. Its time for us to grow up and see life and all its truths..