Stars have fallen,
No more clouds my eyes.
I see the world crumbling,
Pieces of life flying by.

Exams are over. Woohoo? Not quite.. Try painful reminders of the life you once put behind. Building love up into pretty little castles, waiting for the world to stop and stare. Suddenly it gets washed over and all you're left with is your buckets and your sand.. You search to catch up with everything you missed and then you find that they didn't even bother leaving you a trail behind. Breathe they say, you have time. What use is time and an unending ticking clock when it's just you with all your unfulfilled hopes to bring you down from inside. Love sweeps over me but like little glitter on art. It makes you feel all pretty again and then you realize its gonna be alot of time and alot of work. Sparkles in your eyes, warmth in your hugs.. Make me feel better again cause I can't tell you how much I need you now. I'm all alone with no one to care, won't somebody see me and save me from this hell?

Collide

The dawn is breaking

A light shining through

You're barely waking

And I'm tangled up in you,

yeah

I'm open, you're closed

Where I follow,you'll go

I worry I won't see your face

Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme

Out of the doubt that fills my mind

I somehow find you and I collide

I'm quiet you know

You make a first impression

I've found I'm scared to know

I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the stars refuse to shine

Out of the back you fall in time

I somehow find you and I collide

Don't stop here

I lost my place

I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme

Out of the doubt that fills your mind

You finally find you and I collide

You finally find you and I collide

You finally find you and I collide...

I've forgotten how painful it is to be amongst the world and yet feel all alone. When the way everyone looks at you just seems like a glance. I must admit my heart has grown cold. But even if it were frozen, I would feel the pieces breaking in it's core. Lost and buried before my time. All by experiencing more than what I could at the wrong times. Searched and searched for that one call. Looking for the one thing, one place I could truly count on. Day by day the light turns night, leaving me lacking the life I once learnt to like. Symmetry and poetry was all that I sought. Yet, today... I'm left alone..

so the lost girl sings..

There she dances,
The lost girl in Mephis,
Eyes lost in teardust,
Skipping life by.

She twirls her hair in darkness,
Then sits by the stairs,
She sings of lost lovers,
and screams in despair.

The tales she once told,
Have all become cold,
The dreams she once had,
Are the ones she now dreads.

All she can hear are the ryhmes in her head,
The lost story untold,
The truth of the death,
Of one spirit child that never really left.

Colder and safer

I'm spinnin round in circles,
waiting to fall down.
Nobody catch me,
I'm doing this on my own.

Tables are turning,
Everything fades.
Something feels colder,
Everyday...

Your touch is warm,
Just like the sun.
Keeping me safe,
No need to run...

Cause nothing really lasts forever,
Nothing but this feeling after.
I'm screaming,
I'm cleaning,
I'm breathing anew.

I feel you,
I feel you...

Don't let go. But let me fall... Let me fall..

OMG! The stress is taking over me. Or atleast I hope that this is because of the stress.. I feel the downs. The ever faithful dissapointment and blues... Deadliest freakin emotion that consumes the being.. Wishing you were somehow here again. Wishing you could try a little harder to care. I don't wanna be this feeling. I don't know if theres anything else telling me I can. I've worn out my sources. Exhausted every feeling within me. All thats left to feel is me. The mask is gone. I'm wearing this smile. The laughter is fading and right now, it feels like theres no more inside.

Dreaming my dreams..

I'm not a little girl trying to be all grown up. I'm all grown up and my world is here. The time will come when only my thoughts remain and untill that day, everything else is still going to change. I don't want to be the one dragged down into life screaming. I want to embrace and live every part of it. Let this be my time. My moment. Let me make this leap and just be proud that I'm making it. Accept this for this is who I am, I'm not broken because I choose to stand. Stay close and don't let go of my hand. I still want you here by my side. I just need you to trust that I know whats right in my heart. Tonight I'll try and maybe tommorow I'll fall but that will be when I need you to catch me. Don't keep me from leaping into this cloud...

Don't be blinded by the past. Let things unfold and make them last. Maybe if people change the world will see. Maybe it won't and I will be set free. It seems hard and I don't want it to be. It was perfect. So very clear and it was too good to be true. This is why I give up. This is why I clipped my wings together and painted my smile black. Cold from the world, not feeling anything. Undo this feeling, let me go back to my masks that kept me safe. Stop these tears from falling down my already scarred face. I'm done leaping, so afraid. Scream a scream and lift this cursed downfall off of me. I'm tired. Afraid. Leave me be, with my guitar and painted smiles across my face.

A line across the bed..

Well, while i have the downs still buzzing in my head. Thought id squeeze out a lil bit of words that lie well together.

It started across the room from here, you saw me standing far away. Maybe it was part of a plan and maybe its just something we wanted to believe. Life was cold and I needed a hand, I was falling apart and it just seemed like no one was there. I walked alone in the dark, feeling around a familiar path and then I found a little speck. A little clean bright spot that sat so well in my hand. I picked it up and cleaned it up, the light shined so bright I thought I'd eventually go blind. The oh so familiar sight of pitch black and the seemless sounds of muffled voices seemed a little clearer. A little brighter. I keep the little shiny speck in my pocket. Saving it from the rain clouds that still hover. Maybe one day I'll wear you around my neck and maybe let you lead the way. Right now though, these rain clouds are mine to bear. Drop by drop it leaves me drenched and alone I'll walk in the dark despair. You'll be the light to guide me out, you will be the one who brightens the dark but I'll save you for another day. When the muffled sounds go away and the rain clouds are no more of their dullest grey. It will be your hand in mine, and whats left is just the sun. I promise the night will one day turn bright and we'll know that the stars have finally aligned. Just for us, side by side. You, me and the little bright speck inside.

Its time to run away from these thoughts screaming inside my head. Time to take a deep breath and plunge myself into the depths of darkness. Where sight is no more my own but yours alone. Screams are quiet trying to find their way. It is about the time of about the day to make this thoughts die down again. Hush my conscience let the darkness come through. Its time for us to grow up and see life and all its truths..

I'm standing in the dark with a candle lit by sparks. A light dimming with every teardrop that falls from the cheek of my face. Another blink, another stream comes rolling down. Be still.. Emotions be still.. my heart feels still, a little less than calm. Oh sweet remedies please come a knockin on my door.