TaDaa!

Yes, i believe the time is right. I believe i see the world just taking flight. I know where i am and where i sorta wanna be. And right now, amazingly, I am right where that is. I'm all grown up, or atleast i'm gettin there. hehe.. better than nothing rite?? duhh!! I can move on and I can stand still i can do anythin and not have to wonder what anyone else is doing. I can be what I wanna be and all I need to do is prove it to myself! Yes, yes, my friends have told me all this before but it is much easier said than done. And I do believe that this feeling can't be done. It has to be much welcomed with open arms from a whole bunch of overthought issues into a giant pile of burning past. Time to deal with what i have infront of me. Not what is coming and not what has past. Just what is here, what is now, what or shall i say who I AM.

Glitter

I feel like throwing up but somehow I dont think its the food poisoning. I feel like screaming but somehow I feel it isnt cause im growing. I feel the world crashing down right at my feet just waiting for me to pick up the pieces. Its gettin old, its gettin too long and hard. Give me the right songs, give me the right lines. Help me find the right wings to take flight on to soar the great blue sky. Light the way and i will follow, out of my darkness please let me come along. I will snap out of this I know I can. Give me time and lend me a hand. Tomorrow will bring a brand new plan. ;)

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Let me let go of this mask i wear, let me replace it with something else. This is losing colour and all vitality, its losing emotion and leaves only one hanging. Wanting all that was in my past to somehow happen again to remind me how to feel. Oh God please tell me what you want of me and help me conquer it. I need a past and a future, I cant live in this hole of despair wondering where to place my steps. Why do I keep on falling, where can I drift away? Let me start breathing, a brand new breed of air.. I know this is what I keep asking but is this all there is to be? Is it always only to be a question? a simple request from me?