illusion

An illusion is a story,a tall tale. It's a bright and shining story that masks a hidden darkness. Words of a wonderful writter that is David Gemmell. A phrase so perfect, so flawless. One that describes who we all have become at one point or other. Circumstances that force us to have to put on that smile when all inside you is screaming and ripped apart. A hidden darkness.. I feel it, tucked within me. Far away inside but I feel it, i feel every morsel of it dying to get out. I won't let it breathe not all at one time though know theres a safe landing. People to help me stay strong. I feel the shadows calling to me sending me messages through my pain, and still I feel the world is so amazing. Still the most beautiful place. Life is great even with shadows of darkness, love surrounds me constantly although sometimes all the love pierces the heart. I keep close to my illusions my little drama act, I stay within my dreams and convince every other actor that I'm doing fine and you know, it doesnt hurt so much. ;)

Scarlet Night

In the darkness burns a scarlet flame upon a candle that never seems to dim. Standing alone. Lost in all the nothingness and yet still able to find its light. A candle that burns forever, a candle that cannot be drowned out by night. All around is fading, everything feels the same. My mended heart keeps pounding and the flame calls out my name. It beats its light toward me and brings me close to its warmth, I feel the flame surround me and my heart and it both beat as one. From its fire falls its wax, black like the night it seemed to be; like all the dark nights that keep haunting me. It drips upon the ground so cold and once again onto my toes. Seeping through my pale skinned bones. Keeping me awake in my silent scream when i feel alone inside my dream. The dream that creeps in as I wake; the waking cold throughout the day. The light that burns and bleeds the night. Forming my shadows that keep out of sight to hide the demons that remain immortal for all time.