Away with these ashes..

My heart pounds as I hold in another scream. Another monster too devious to kill. Won't the shadows go back into their closets? Won't the constant beating drum finally rest and let me close my eyes. I no longer love the pain of all there is. I've become cold and soft like ice on the touch of a giant. Trying so hard to keep it together so the weight doesn't send me drowning through and yet he persists.. Leaving the ice flakes shattered, scattered away from each other. I melt away and form with others and still my heart aches for the ones that held me together. A triumph is what I seek and yet there isn't a tale of such waiting to be told. Instead I'm lost in tragedies, stories of the untold. Insanity strikes at my waking mind. Will I sleep another useless restless night? My eyes tired, darkened at the brim.. Soon they flood and yet still, theres nothing. No more to scream, no more to cry.. Theres no more to say because theres no more strength inside. No more of me to give up and try.. The sea will come and the wind will blow the ashes of insanity away.. But this part of me, will stay. In silence, within me where it's existance will never be betrayed..

angel eyes..

Such a numbing feeling, stemming from the heart. Running through my fingers.. Wondering when did it all start? Sitting in silence before a familiar face, somehow you know me but don't remember the time or place. Lovers once met in destiny's lair somehow now lost in despair. Like a maiden locked way up high in a tower, screaming out loud with no knight in shining armour. I set my hair down the golden stair but somehow my knight misses it and goes running back the same way. Silent killers sneaking in through the dark, where is all this loneliness coming from? All the hidden little thoughts, the broken closets of shadows locked up. Sing our harmony like we once danced to our duet. Bring me back to my poetry of where you and I both met. I can't be your guide with lights shining bright. Now you need to be my subtle hand and lead me through the night. Sweet sorrow leave my side. Bring me back my somedays that have somehow disappeared in the stillness of the new flock of wings taking flight. Send me my angel so that somehow I may just enjoy my true love;s gaze once again..

sail away with me..

An old familiar symphony plays behind all the silly masks, a tune so rich in solitude that no other man can hear it bask. Way beneath the sunlit sky, way beyond you and I's. High and low it twirls and twirls as far as the wind can blow. Caught in a dance within this wind, I can't find my way out. The music fades into my mind and after time it becomes a part of me. Twilight dancers and a moonlight gaze. Crazy merchants with windows glazed. Return to me my numbing potion. Let us be travellers on the sea. The endless wind will blow my way and forever will we sail further and further away.

Lost

The realm of not knowing.. Once we start our dance in solitude, the world then slips away. The wind spins as one with us and yet we get caught in the rain. Dreamers wake up from forsaken dreams. They come back to whats true and real. Maybe this time will be the last. Maybe this time will be made to pass all the tests. Nobody left to tell me their story. Nobody dares for my mistakes were gory. Look beyond every line and measure and remember this girl inside who once begun the dance for you. Take my hand and walk me through. I've lost all memory of the dancer's steps. Lost all memory of the dancer herself. Complete these steps that I need to recall and whisper in my ear to remind me not to fall. A dreamer's boat is far past the ocean bed, I'm waiting right here because I know it's time to grow up and make some new footsteps.

My head is filled with noise. Drowning out all sense of reasoning. No rhyme goes by without blurring past my aching thoughts. Be silent and fade away. Do it now and let me stand again. The pain is too great for one to carry. The noise drowns me and keeps me dwelling. The past, the present, the unseen future. Be there for now and not the other. Swirl in circles much like cream on cake full of sugar though noone can bare its fullness of taste. Forget the world tonight and all its lifeless tragedies. Think not of now for it will only be one more of life's parodies. Look not into the distance, the light is blinding the sight. Drown out the past and rely on my own new song. Let me breathe now and let me have my time to be lost. I need to hang on to me for I fear one day she will be lost.

A different daydream...

Everyday is a different daydream... Every one leaving me a little further behind. I find myself drifting in music lost in little beats of time. Let me live a little sunshine... Something to dry away the dark. Till tomorrows are nothing but a hidden rhyme. Every note of my song is for you although it pierces my very being. This song I sing right now is mine and right now I sing the blues... The stars in my skies are fading quickly and the only one I see is you. It feels like I'm reaching too high, asking the moon to share his light. Give me more time to bask beneath as he forever seems to take endless flight. The stars are becoming so unreal. The burning lights seem so dim. I'm holding on to fantasies, to maybes, what ifs and what could have been. Starlight, starbright, I wish I may, I wish I might, Have my wish come true tonight. Fall into my hands like raindrops on water... Whisper in my ear something I need to hear. Tell me tomorrow is knocking at my door. Let me run to it swiftly with you in my hand so that I may see it when I answer. Oh daydreams please give me my nights.. I need to go to sleep now and hold my lover in my arms... Leave not this person empty in her bed. No, just give her time to rest her head. Time it is and nothing else... Only time parts us and only time will tell...

Another crushed hope...

If only you cared to know the half of it.. You claim you see me for who I am and yet deep down inside you fear that I am but a sleeping baby. I'm more than meets the eye with leaps and bounds quite far behind. I've skipped through obstacles and nasty winds. I'm here at my first peak and I needed a pit stop. You urge me to move past this and one day you may just see me break right down. Sit down and tell me a story just like you always do and I will listen but when will it be my turn? Maybe we've reached a time where it's time you listen to me because here I am. Wearing my stories on my face. Look at the shattered creases of once crystal filled eyes. As the shards of glass pierce my heart when you look away the crystals fall right down leaving their scrape marks right where my eyes ache. Washing away the sight they dream to see. Take another big step and you will see that you have once again crushed another one of my little dreams. Let me be amazing because I am what I am. Look me in the eye and tell me you see me. I'm standing right infront of you, beating heart in hand and all. Don't take it from me just listen to the rhythm of the beats and see that it would have once matched yours...